dear world,

today is nov 13 2025

i am an extremely hard working man from texas, though i try to make my work seem easy. i spend all day trying
to help others, i give 110% every day, while trying to make it apper like i do nothing. texans are the
hardest working people on earth, harder working even than korean or chinese or japanese workers, because
we get it done better and in less time.

i am a man who serves god, and if there isnt a god then i serve the idea of good.

i have had hypertension lately for the last 1 year due to how hard ive been worked, with no recognition from
society. i trained my whole life to be a computer engineer from microsoft. uw wont train me, the government
denies me a loan, because they say that i make too much, despite that i work minium wage. companies i have
trained my life to servee will not hire me becuase i am a white republican male, because i dare to be
born into a successful race, and because i dare to think differnetly than them.

on thefastscrolls.neocities.org i have have built a blueprint that will save life, that will engineer
a new lifestyle for the lower class, where even in an apocalypse condition they can survive and
thrive out of a backpack. in that document is knowledge that i could have been killed for sharing,
that my family was swatted and targed for trying to get out. i also desinged a new computer archieccture
rivaling that of ada spark, that had an open design, copiled to truly portable c, was safe and proof checked,
had optional mmap shared memory, and that was truly jitted with flexiblle syntax via reder macros at
compile time repl. this sytem when compared with k root linux would have solved generational problems
that the smartest miltary and corproate minds couldnt solve with vast teams and budgets and tools.
i have outsmarted the smartest people in teh world becuase i am a patriot from texas. my work cant
be cenosred. it is uncensorable by design. i have won.

i have done so much work for the earth that no one sees or will ever know. i have begged the establshment
to let me help for free, for zero wages, with myself living on the most meagre scraps, so that i remain
unbribable. just like alan turing, they refuse to let me contribute. their power structure is based
on them ebing able to choose ewho has power and who doesnt. alan turing was rushed through the procedure
of being given a degree by alonzo church so that he could litearlly save us from nazis destroying us by
inventing the computer. his merit was fake, but it tricked the british royal navy. my history professor
says his univeristy doesnt have grades. as long as i have attendence i can get the degree that will
trick the establishment into hiring me, even if i dont pay attention. i refuse. it is a retard system
for restards, as i have said in the past.

i need a 30 cent pill that could save my life tonight. a blood pressure medicatoin. i have alerted
the esatblishmend taht i have neded medication for months to operte. they refuse to give me
even a penny to help me to help them. though i struggle to engineer for them they refuse to allow
me to help them at all. that is pathetic. i might die tonight because my stress has made my
blood pressure so high that if i can not calm myself down the entire night i am likely to have
a stroke and die. i cannot afford the hosptial again. i have taken a vow of poverty for my homeless, and trump
has defuned my medicine reserved for the poor fo the poor like me. since they are talking about bringing
back debtors prison, any hospitaliation could put me into a lifetime in jail. i would rather die a free man.

i would like to thank my mother, who was so loving to me as a baby and toddler. who taught me morality
when i was becoming wicked, and who set me on a mission to thank my brother

i would like to admonish my father, who although he made me a great man, was abusive to me and my family
who believes i am not worthy of basic human respect because i do not make as much money as him, and who
does not respect my free wil as a soverign being. who even now if he had control over me would feel
comrotable busing me, and if he had control of you he would abuse you too.

i want to thank my brother for his service to my family and our nation. and i wish him well and
hope he will heed my advice.i hope one day he will learn the truth instead of the lies that bind him.
you have no idea how my brother shall take vegnence on my behlaf.

i want to thank the women of my life for making me relize how worthy i am, becuse the women
in my life has been disgusting horrible peope undererving of my love and kindness.

i forgive everyone and everything in the omniverse. you are forgiven for doing this to me.
you are forgiving for refusing me a 30 cent pill, and putting me in the posiiton to accept
ten thousand dollars of debts to survive.

even if i surive tonight i will be lucky if i survive the next few weeks. i will have
to to take any salt and caffeine out of my diet at all or i will certainly die. and if
that doenst work hten nothing and no one can save my life.

i do not feel afraid. but i want to share a song and i cant think of something i havent
already put in my pdf. it is hard to pick music to express my life.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eC7xzavzEKY
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HzcAR6yQhF8
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HzcAR6yQhF8
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nnG1oUkWBa8

i have to lay down now and do nothing and try not to die when i could be making changes
that saved life for 30 cents.

my endorsement for presidnet is whoever donald j trump endorses for president. head
mounted computers are the mark of the beast.

sincerely,
john m. beck